昨晚因為莫名的心情低潮，所以掛網一晚甚麼書也沒念，早上睡過頭於是翹了刑總，上大學以來總是一直陷在罪惡感的糾纏中。會計考試也不順利，只希望泰昌佛心來著，別當我。或許就是天生欠缺數學細胞，又自投羅網的悲歌吧。
考完試到鹿鳴小妻買晚餐，拄著拐杖腳步卻遲遲上不了樓梯，搖搖晃晃的重心讓我一度以為我就要向下撲倒了
幸好 這時走過的兩名外籍女學生 急忙攙住我的手臂，我才不致踉蹌摔落樓梯。
他們的中文流利又標準，不帶一點口音，我連聲道謝，他們卻只是微微一笑，轉過身，又繼續用法語聊天了
溫情~~
Friday, May 25, 2012
Monday, April 23, 2012
what makes our life worth living
上個學期，我常被一個問題所困，當我已無法在課業上取得成就感，學習對我而言就像是每天必做的例行公事，內容是如此的遙遠深奧、複雜，讓我一點也提不起勁，和系上的連結也因為體力和興趣的緣故而只剩下幾個朋友相伴，我的生活頓時陷入一種反覆的節拍，起床，更衣、盥洗、出門念書、上課、吃飯........，我曾試圖改變這種一成不變的生活步調，但我別無他法。所有事物在我眼裡都平凡無奇，曾經輕盈美好的情懷已悄悄消逝，我嘆惋，繼續照表操課的生活，一點一滴地漸漸失去自我，忘卻初衷，彷彿一部機器，只剩下理性，而不知情感為何物。
消沉了好一陣， 心情載浮載沉於日常的波動中，時好時壞，使我異常苦惱。然而我越想和瑣事及煩惱劃清界線，就反而更加深陷其中，無法全身而退。
直到我看到這部名為口白人生的影片，我驀然驚覺，這不就是我的生活寫照嗎，機械式地度過一天又一天，甚至忘了時間，一心一意期待著周末到來，周末過後卻感到更深的疲憊。我做每件事都要計時，多一秒就會焦躁不安於是，我總像在追趕甚麼似的備覺壓力異常。
然而在 國文課上接觸到老莊思想的平撫，我開始明白，生命的有限，有許多事情是我們想做卻遲遲未付諸實行，為自己預設了種種想像的假設，壓抑了自己內心的那個inner child
but what 's the point for pushing ourselves so hard since we can only live once?
why can't we simply follow our true talents?
消沉了好一陣， 心情載浮載沉於日常的波動中，時好時壞，使我異常苦惱。然而我越想和瑣事及煩惱劃清界線，就反而更加深陷其中，無法全身而退。
直到我看到這部名為口白人生的影片，我驀然驚覺，這不就是我的生活寫照嗎，機械式地度過一天又一天，甚至忘了時間，一心一意期待著周末到來，周末過後卻感到更深的疲憊。我做每件事都要計時，多一秒就會焦躁不安於是，我總像在追趕甚麼似的備覺壓力異常。
然而在 國文課上接觸到老莊思想的平撫，我開始明白，生命的有限，有許多事情是我們想做卻遲遲未付諸實行，為自己預設了種種想像的假設，壓抑了自己內心的那個inner child
but what 's the point for pushing ourselves so hard since we can only live once?
why can't we simply follow our true talents?
gap between theory and practice
having studying law for nearly a year in ntu, I feel like i just scratched the surface of legal studies.
those specialized terms and logical patterns different from those used in daily life seemed so abstract to me that sometimes I doubt if studying law is useful to settle any problems in life.Therefore, i tried to set aside time to listen to lectures, read books, leaf through magazines to navigate my way through college
And by observing and organizing what I had experienced in these days, I came down to a general conclusion. Legal graduates' choices of professions can be categorized into three domain,theorists,practitioners,and dreamers.
First, theoretical field includes scholars, researchers. People devoting to these professions tend to buried themselves in clusters of books and uphold the value of law. In my perspective, their jobs are significantly important,though too overwhelming. Too much academic workload detaches them from the imperfect reality and imprisons them in a utopia.
second, practical professions contain judges,prosecutors, judge assistants,attorneys etc.
they especially focus on what legal measures can be taken to settle different cases.The measures employed by them depend on their stance at court.they care the final outcome more.
although their jobs are relatively more diverse and interesting than those of their theorists counterparts, they also endure more pressure at work since there are specific deadlines they must met and most of the time they have several cases at hand simultaneously. If they can't manage to deal with their stress, they simply earn an envious salary at the sacrifice of their health and quality time.
third, just to clarify, i adopt the term of dreamers to refer to the group that had pursued legal studies but end up devoting to their dreams ultimately. whatever passions they cherish, they share one common thing ---strong will. to take a path with scarce footprints can be intimidating. without courage and perseverance, they are prone to family pressure of their "unwise " decisions.
even though it's too early for me to consider which job to take, it's better to grasp useful information as early as possible. and good news is academic field sounds not so appealing to me XD
those specialized terms and logical patterns different from those used in daily life seemed so abstract to me that sometimes I doubt if studying law is useful to settle any problems in life.Therefore, i tried to set aside time to listen to lectures, read books, leaf through magazines to navigate my way through college
And by observing and organizing what I had experienced in these days, I came down to a general conclusion. Legal graduates' choices of professions can be categorized into three domain,theorists,practitioners,and dreamers.
First, theoretical field includes scholars, researchers. People devoting to these professions tend to buried themselves in clusters of books and uphold the value of law. In my perspective, their jobs are significantly important,though too overwhelming. Too much academic workload detaches them from the imperfect reality and imprisons them in a utopia.
second, practical professions contain judges,prosecutors, judge assistants,attorneys etc.
they especially focus on what legal measures can be taken to settle different cases.The measures employed by them depend on their stance at court.they care the final outcome more.
although their jobs are relatively more diverse and interesting than those of their theorists counterparts, they also endure more pressure at work since there are specific deadlines they must met and most of the time they have several cases at hand simultaneously. If they can't manage to deal with their stress, they simply earn an envious salary at the sacrifice of their health and quality time.
third, just to clarify, i adopt the term of dreamers to refer to the group that had pursued legal studies but end up devoting to their dreams ultimately. whatever passions they cherish, they share one common thing ---strong will. to take a path with scarce footprints can be intimidating. without courage and perseverance, they are prone to family pressure of their "unwise " decisions.
even though it's too early for me to consider which job to take, it's better to grasp useful information as early as possible. and good news is academic field sounds not so appealing to me XD
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